Nemo121

I apologise for the necro-thread re-animation but after someone mentioned this thread in passing recently I decided to look it up and comment albeit with the caveat that I'm sure I'm still perma-banned and am thus, technically, doing a rather naughty thing ;-). With that said, I'm not here to cause any hassle so that context should provide some amelioration. So, to the "where is he now" question: Happily working away as a psychiatrist. Trying to help my patients as much as possible make their way in a frequently rather difficult real world. According to US university lecturer scales I'm technically a Professor teaching psychiatry and related fields to undergraduates and postgraduates - It's all rather grown up and weird to look back on this forum's familiar greenness and think how much things have changed in my life since I was last here. Nowadays if I google myself I find a few articles etc from my research and then start running into old wargaming threads ... it is an interesting reflection of how life changes. As to others' reflections on me here... What I'll say is this: Whenever you become identified with something ( a game, for example ) lots of people come at you with lots of agendas and if you're young, as I was, sometimes you can't see which of them are trolls, which of them are jerks and which of them are decent people disagreeing with you but with good intentions. When I was here I was a lot younger - 20 to 24 or so - and I sometimes: a) got far too caught up in the importance of a minute point which, really, in the greater scheme of things didn't matter much. lost perspective on the utter unimportance of a game compared to the real world that's out there and completely trumps anything on the computer in terms of importance and reward c) let myself get drawn into discussions by trolls who would never quite break the rules but do everything they could to anger me so I'd explode at them and then they could go running to BF to get me banned d) exploded at the wrong person after being aggravated by a troll elsewhere e) made plain old fashioned mistakes with none of the above reasons as justification. I find it amusing that people are referring to me in the present tense when they talk of how I was when I was in my early 20s instead of how I am now in my mid-30s. I'm not the person I was in my mid-20s and I like to think that I'd recognise trolls more quickly, not get drawn in by trolls as quickly and wouldn't explode at them as often --- often creating rather a lot of collateral damage. After all I've matured a lot from 20-something to my mid-30s and amn't the same person as I was then. I'm sure anyone here can understand that they made similar journeys along similar timeframes. With all of that said I haven't changed my viewpoint regarding forum owners censoring posts in a biased fashion but my idealism that you have to fight every injustice you see has been tempered by the recognition of the sheer impossibility and personal unsurvivability of such a stance. As to what I do now. I play Rising Storm for relaxation and Admiral's Edition of War in the Pacific ( where I still write AARs although they're on the grand strategic level ) for a bit of cerebral stimulation and spend the rest of my time doing research for articles I'm writing or just out and about with friends and family. Bottom line: There was a lot going on back then and I was young and certainly didn't handle it as well as it could and should have been handled. I think that's a story most people who are in their 30s or older can identify with. I definitely have a much greater sense of the unimportance of things said on the internet and other people's perspectives etc and I think I also have better radar for the trolls and jerks and a policy of trying to avoid them as opposed to racing to confront them (as I did when younger ). Life's a lot more stable, settled and peaceful and I like it like that. Have fun with the various BF games. I have CM: Afghanistan which I liked, Shock Force ( bleurgh!! even with the patches ) and the latest Normandy game ( which I love and play ) and will be getting the Italian Front when I have time for it. BF - I would hope you'd accept this in the spirit of posting in a reflective manner and not creating hassle. With that said if you want to ban me again so be it. Best of luck with your future projects, I think we all need to support all quality wargame developers.